11th September 2022
It's early September and some of my besties are going to be in the South of Spain this weekend. They want me to come over and I feel the urge to travel and want to disappear from my life here in London and rest up from being poked at by the medical professionals. I want to be spontaneous. Something I have not been able to do for a while.
Decision made, I go ahead and book my flight to Estepona for the weekend. I am aware it might be a long time before I can see any of my friends for a while once the Bridget journey starts at full speed.
I understand I will need moments of living in the present and I intend to take every opportunity I can to make sure I enjoy these moments fully and make the best of my situation and carry on living
It is Friday and my next biopsy is booked, nothing more I can do at this stage. The doctor's need a further neck sample from me because they are unable to work out from the previous biopsy taken the type of cancer I have and where the primary tumour is located. Fortunately, the head to toe MRI scan showed that the secondary cancer has not spread to any other part of my body. For now the cancer is contained by my neck lymph nodes. Basically my understanding is my neck lymph nodes, my immune system was doing it's job and managed to capture the cancer, (my neck lymph nodes) from the unknown primary source and keep it there which is a miracle for me. There are not many places left where the primary cancer could be hiding. The doctor mentioned a small spot on my tongue and MEC salivary gland type of cancer but again this is one of the possible scenarios, still nothing confirmed. For now, trying to stay positive and read between the lines concentrating on my best outcome which is thyroid cancer. I try not to think too deeply about my best outcome and staying positive. I would rather the doctor's said to me it was a mistake, there have been times speaking to the doctor I have thought they have said this but they soon correct me and tell me although the primary cancer has not been found, the secondary cancer, (neck lymph nodes) do have cancer.
The doctors also talked about the importance of finding the primary tumour because otherwise I cannot have targeted radio/chemo therapy, instead I would need full treatment because they would need to make sure all areas are covered. This options sounds intense and I feel overwhelmed with this news. I am please I am parking Bridget for the weekend.
My doctor says, the Radiologist who found Bridget may have saved my life. All the doctors keep telling me I am a really lucky person. The cells are small and very hard to detect on a scan and for the cells to be found at such an early stage is a miracle.
I recommend anyone who is fortunate enough to have work private health insurance plan and the opportunity to have a 360 Health Assessment check up to take up the offer. Remember, I had no symptoms, no red flags, Bridget has been picked up early which gives me more hope for a curable outcome. A year down the road, Bridget could have spread to my lungs and who knows what my outcome would have been. Today I have hope. I am going to cling on to the desire because I really want this to happen.
Lovely to see my friends Suzanne and Michelle in Estepona. We had a beautiful time catching up and sharing special moments together. We all share a friendship of over 30 years which is truly extra special.
Song: Bring me Sunshine by Morcambe and Wise because this song makes me smile and move my focus to thinking about and appreciating the good things I have in my life like my friends. I need to enjoy the moment, nothing else matters right now.
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