Sunshine

31 October 2022

This morning my bottle blood drain was removed. For me this is a double edge sword because 1. I could go home. 2. I felt scared going home and being alone without the medical experts being by my side.

My blood drain was removed from my neck and I was told by the doctor that I could go home. No more carrying a bottle of blood around attached to my neck! I try not to think too much about my fear of being alone at home. Thinking about what can go wrong at home is a normal reaction and switch my mind to thinking everything will be okay at home instead.

I am going to miss being looked after by nurse Daphne who has been so attentive and kind.

Rob waited with me to be discharged which was lovely. I had to wait for my medication before I could be released. So far I feel fine and I lock the worries I am feeling to one side of my brain. For now I have nothing to worry about apart from taking it slowly and healing.

Song: Sunshine by John Denver because I need to be stronger than my mind wants me to be today. I need to believe that nothing will happen to me at home by myself and believing in sunshine will move my journey forward.